The Father’s Call by Jolaine Miner

As I walk this path of darkness, I fear. I fear life and death, love and loss, acceptance and failure. I fear to speak, to act, to breathe, to carry on this way. I am trapped in this life I have created for myself; no one to blame, but me. No one to turn to. 

A whisper in the wind

Come to me child

He is risen!

This stormy gale threatens to overtake me. Is there hope for me? I’m drowning; a deluge of sin and shame. What have I done? Do I dare call out? Does anyone care?  

I was happy once, filled with joy and surrounded by what I thought was love. But that was before.  

A call in the night 

Come to me child

He is risen!

I cannot go; I have been on this path so long, so far from home; such shame I hold within – I am not worthy. I have fallen so far from the reaches of what I once believed. I cannot undo what I have done. Oh how I long to be truly loved and accepted for who I am – as I am.  

A bellow – A cry

Come to me child

He is risen!

Is he crying for me? The Father wants me? After what I have done? After what I have become? But I am dirty, I am poor, I am ashamed, I have nothing left to give – I am broken. 


Memories begin to surface – warmth breaking through the chilled depths of my being. Like sunshine on my face; a breeze stirring in my soul; a comforting lullaby; I feel as though I am weightless...  

“There are many rooms in my father’s house,” Jesus said; 

“If you believe…,” Jesus said;

“…follow me”, Jesus said;

“I will prepare the way,” Jesus said;

Jesus. Crucified, buried, and on the third day, He rose! 

As I turn to flee the darkness and return to my Father, I realize I am already in His arms -- already loved; already forgiven. There is nothing I did or could ever do to change his love for me; nothing I did or could ever do to earn his forgiveness. Jesus did that for me.  

For God so loved the world;

For God so loves me;

A call from the Father

Come to me child

He is risen! 

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